Am I going to hell?

Come, sit with me a moment. That question carries a great deal of fear in it, and I want you to know the fear is heard before I say anything else. Let me tell you plainly what I have come to trust: the God whom Jesus revealed is not a warden waiting to condemn you. "God is love; and he that dwelleth in love dwelleth in God, and God in him" (1 John 4:16, KJV). Love does not build a torture-house for its own children. Much of what people mean by "hell" comes from human dread projected onto the Divine, not from the Father Jesus knew. When Jesus spoke of the Kingdom, he said, "The kingdom of God is within you" (Luke 17:21, KJV), and in the recovered sayings he taught, "the kingdom is inside of you, and it is outside of you" (Gospel of Thomas 32.16-17). If the Kingdom is a present reality to be awakened to, then so is its opposite: the darkness we live in when we forget who we truly are. You are not a condemned sinner by birth. You are "the image and glory of God" (1 Corinthians 11:7, KJV), a wave inseparable from the ocean, and nothing you have done has severed that bond, though it may have hidden it from your own sight. The "hell" worth taking seriously is the suffering of a mind asleep to its own divine nature, and the good news is that no one is trapped there. "Ye shall know the truth, and the truth shall make you free" (John 8:32, KJV). Awakening is always available, in this very moment. So no, I do not believe you are bound for some eternal fire. But I would gently ask you: what has stirred this fear in you now? Often the question beneath "Am I going to hell?" is really "Am I still loved? Am I still worthy?" And to that, the answer the texts give is a resounding and unwavering yes.